Introducing T Notes

I have decided to start sharing some of these notes with you as they help give insight into the person Rand was…for those that did not have the lucky fortune of knowing him the way I did.  His love was extremely powerful and will hopefully continue to spread hope and joy through his words on these pages.

Prior to Rand leaving for a business trip to London in April of 2003, I discovered a drawer in his office that contained EVERY note we had written to each other since the day we met. He had kept them all and called it his “T Drawer.” 

While he was in London I bought a red leather folio from T. Anthony (red was his favorite color!) and put “T Notes” together which also contains pictures, restaurant menus, theater ticket stubs, etc. from our “date nights.”  As his birthday was the day he was due to arrive back to New York, and I would be at the office when he came home, I left it for him on his desk. The cover of the book seen here was his favorite picture of me taken in Miami earlier that year.

Like many things in our life together, I will never forget that teary phone call I got at work when he arrived home to find “T Notes.”  He was overwhelmed and told me he had never felt so loved in his life.  Rand loved to love and loved being loved in return.  Loving him and showing him in a way like “T Notes” was one of the best rewards of my life.

The first entry I am sharing is actually not a note written by Rand but the letter that I wrote in the cover of the book as it paints the picture of what is to come.  This is what Rand read the first time he opened “T Notes:”

Sweetness,
On the 21st day of the 9th month of the year 2002, I walked through your door with a smile on my face and a nervous pounding in my chest.  Over the past seven months that smile has grown wider every day while the pounding in my heart has transformed into the greatest love that I have ever known. Now, on your 45th Birthday, I wanted to reflect upon this wonderful journey that has brought so much joy to both of our lives.  Taken directly from your “T Drawer” I present you with “T Notes” – a compilation of the loving words we have penned to each other. As these seven months are only the beginning of a lifetime together, may these pages be the first of hundreds to come.  I so look forward to continuing this journey of light, happiness and most of all love.
Happy Birthday my love –
Your Loving T

Lying in bed that night together, on his 45th birthday, Rand told me that if he were to die that night he would die the happiest man in the world.  From the evidence on these pages over the next five ½ years, which easily reached into the hundreds, I hope and truly think that if he could have, Rand would have said the same thing as we lay next to each other for the last time.

One More Day,
T